So I thought about it a bit more, about being happy, getting to a place of fulfillment. I do know that I, we, need to learn, if we dont want this year to be like last year. Its funny because I felt hope tonight, out of nowhere, (thats how I keep going sometimes, flashes of clarity that it is all leading somewhere) that this year could actually be the beginning of something good. I still dont want to get my hopes up particularly. But I think life makes you learn before you can move on.
I can say with confidence that if we want 2008 to be different for any of us, we cant repeat the same behaviour as last year. You know exactly what i’m talking about…
We’re writing our own stories and we’re contributing paragraphs to other people’s stories too. Maybe its dark for you right now? Dont fret, its just the second act, its “The Empire Strikes Back”, Han in carbonite, Luke getting his hand chopped off, its “Behind The Music” when Aerosmith descend into drug hell, before their biggest albums. You just keep going. Pink Floyd after losing Syd Barratt, before their greatest records. Bon Jovi during Keep the faith…
Is this a pep talk? Maybe I have been in the USA too long… when we start seeing that its just life and there are supposed to be heaps of steaming faeces to crawl through before we get somewhere, perhaps we’ll learn to take the knocks a bit better. Enjoy it now though cause when your life takes off, you’ll miss the intimate club gigs….
