“Someone should tell us, right at the start of our lives that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit every minute of every day. Do it. I say, whatever you want to do, do it now. There are only so many tomorrows.” Michael Landon, dying from pancreatic cancer.
So I watched “Into the wild” tonight – its one of those life changing works of art that causes you to reignite your spark for however long and here I am tearing apart my website and putting it back with the bare elements, seized by some notion of needing to cut the chaff, just to the truth. I tear my website apart when I am frustrated at being seemingly powerless to move forward with my music. Which is a lie I tell myself.
But I am sucked in to this life now. The suburbs, work, internet. Finding meaningless entertainments to fill my time instead of living in the first person. Like the people with cellphone cameras at gigs, not experiencing the moment but lining up a shot. And people doing that with their kids too. Becoming videographers at the expense of magic.
When you look at us now from the outside it is terrifying what we are becoming. When i had my own running away from everything experience at 18 I came back changed. I was offended by studio laughter. I wanted to hear purely acoustic music. I felt a responsibility to be a better steward of nature. And the concrete world I was re-joining seemed heartless, occupied by fractured people who didnt really commune with eachother,just co-existed.
I want truth. Our musical oracles today for the most part have record companies, sponsors, shareholders to worry about offending. Pearl Jam once stood up against Ticketmaster and took a beating from the industry that has everyone in its pocket – the magazines, the web portals. You get what big business wants you to get and its left to the rest of us to fight for the scraps.
The music is where the fire is and there could be a revolution on the cards, of truth. I am seizing the day in my own small way by getting back into the studio on my own dollar – like End Of Fear – to record a new EP to be released quite soon as well. I cant sit back and wait for the business to accomodate me, I have truth to get out into the world cause life is too short.
“Someone should tell us, right at the start of our lives that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit every minute of every day. Do it. I say, whatever you want to do, do it now. There are only so many tomorrows.”
